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| Leaving For Good |
| 07.13.04 (4:32 am) [edit] |
Alright, I'm moving, AGAIN, but I really like this new blog so I'm pretty sure I'm going to stay there for a long time. I can change the layout too so I won't have to change the addresss, I can just change the html. My new blog is:
Click Here!
I need to get a tagboard for it because I don't know how to make it so that people can comment on my entries. Well I'm gonna go, hasta!!
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| Good Movies |
| 07.11.04 (4:16 pm) [edit] |
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[b]I was at Jasmin's house all weekend so I didn't get the chance to write.[/b] I had a fun time! Friday we rented a bunch of movies (Fight Club, Billy Elliot, The Eye, and The Secret Window) and we got Wendy's before we went back to her house to watch them. I've already seen Fight Club and Billy Elliot but I LOVE those movies. The Eye was in subtitles because it's a foreign film (either Japanese or Chinese... I'm pretty sure it's Japanese...). It was a pretty good movie, but there wasn't too much to the plot. The Secret Window was a lot like Fight Club, and I love Fight Club, so I loved The Secret Window. And Johnny Depp was in it so that made it even better :wink: . Well I suppose I'm gonna go because I'm too lazy to write about the rest of the weekend right now. Hasta!
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| Pierced |
| 07.08.04 (2:13 pm) [edit] |
[b]I finally got my ears re-pierced today!! :D [/b]Yay! I've been wanting to get them pierced again ever since they got infected and closed up... I'm not sure how long ago but it's been over a year. My mom and I went shopping today and I got a new bathing suit, then asked if I could get my ears pierced. I wasn't really expecting her to say yes, but she did, and this really weird goth girl did it. I have [i]nothing[/i] against goth girls, but this one seemed a little off. She talked in this slow whisper and her eyes were shifty. I was scared she was going to attack my face with the gun instead of my ears :twisted: .
[b]I have a quiz to take tomorrow morning because I didn't take it today, [/b]and then my mom is bringing me over to Jasmin's house. We're going to frolic around all day :) . I have no idea what she plans on doing but we'll probably end up doing what we always do: eat a bunch of food and rent crappy movies. I'm gonna go study, hasta!
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| Distracted |
| 07.07.04 (5:21 am) [edit] |
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I can't sleep at night and I'm distracted all day :? . I'm leaving in 10 minutes to go somewhere with my mom and then I'll come home so that I can sit around and try to empty my head by listening to music and laying on my floor. I need to do my math by tomorrow at quarter of eight. Who gets up at 5:30am during summer vacation? I had to get up that early to review stuff before she got here. Well my mom is coming inside now so we're probably leaving soon. I gotta go, hasta
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| Visiting Mi Padre |
| 07.06.04 (3:28 am) [edit] |
[b]My life is turning into a crazy thing![/b] I emailed my dad and said that my mom was going to let me visit him in Canada. I'm going up for 4 days to watch the Sundance (it's this Indian thing my dad does every year... at least I think it's every year) and then I would be staying a couple extra days because my dad isn't allowed to talk to anyone during the 4 days of the Sundance and I want to have a couple days to visit him. I didn't think he really wanted to see me. I figured he'd be like, "Yeah, I thought you could come up but..." I was surprised when he sent me this email back:
Hi Sierra!!
I think it would be awesome if you could come up for the sundance and also stay a couple days extra to visit with me!! I usually have to take a couple days off after as I am pretty weak but I would love it if you came up!! I could show you around and where I work and all your relatives up here and all kinds of things to do!! Really looking forward to your visit and I will call in a day or two to sort things out ok? I Love You Sierra!
-Dad
[b]Moving on...[/b] [i]~college~[/i] I've decided 100% which one I'm going to. I looked up some information on it and I've been thinking that I might want to go there and now I know that's where I'm going. Getting in isn't an issue because my grades are better than most people's who got in there. Of course I'll apply to other places just in case, but if I get in to those colleges I'm not going because I really want to go to this one. If I get there and I don't like it I can always transfer the next semester.
COUNTDOWNS:
Frugan- 8 days
Graduation- 10.5 months
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| Parental Vacation |
| 07.03.04 (6:09 am) [edit] |
[b]My parents are leaving today to go on vacation at the ocean.[/b] They won't let me stay alone because I might die :roll: so I'm spending the night at Jasmin's house tonight. Tomorrow I'm spending the day with Matt :P because it's the 4TH OF JULY and I won't be home until around 11pm. My mom is having my neighbor, Ann, spend the night Sunday and Monday. Yippee, some random old woman is going to be sleeping at my house so she can fend off the evil knife throwers :twisted: that want to steal my life.
[b]My tutoring is going to be over with by next week![/b] Yay :D ! I only have one more quiz, then I have a final and that's it. Then I won't have to plan everything around it and I won't have to be home by 6 every night. I can't wait to be able to sleep in every day and not have to study. Well I gotta go because my mom is dropping me off at Jasmin's house. Hasta!
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| Ocean |
| 07.01.04 (2:50 pm) [edit] |
[b]My dad called last night. [/b]It wasn't awkward at all talking to him because we had a lot to talk about. I wonder what my little (half) brother Brett Issaq looks like now. I think he's 6 years old... but I don't know.
[b]I just got back from the ocean. [/b] I went with Jasmin, David, and Matt. It was a fun time :D !!! We jumped around in the waves like psycho little kids and then frolicked in the current. What's it called when the tide is going out and water gets sucked out that makes a really strong current? Well that was what we frolicked in. It's probably not the safest thing to do since it can pull you out into the ocean and you can drown, but we didn't die so I guess it's alright. Anyway, it got shallow before it went out into the ocean so we could have just stood up and been fine. Well I'm gonna go take a shower. I might write more later. Hasta!
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| Too Early To Live |
| 06.28.04 (4:05 am) [edit] |
[b]I get up at 5:30am because my tutor is supposed to show up at 7:30 and I need to take a shower before everyone else.[/b] So I sit around, waiting for it to be 7:30 so I can get this over with. Sitting, sitting, sitting. It's now 8:00. So I'm still sitting. In a way I'd be happy if she forgot about me because then I can go hang out with people and not have to wait until we're done, but at the same time I'd be mad that I had to wake up at 5:30 for no reason :x
[b]My dad never ended up calling.[/b] Am I dissapointed? :? I don't know. I know that I should be, since he's my dad, but I don't feel much of anything when it comes to him. I kinda wanted to talk to him though because I wanted to ask if I'd be able to go to Canada sometime over the summer to get my ID card (I'm Indian, so if I get my ID card from the reservation he lives on, I can go to college for free). He'll probably call eventually... in like a year, lol.
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| He Emailed Me |
| 06.27.04 (4:51 pm) [edit] |
[b]Matt ended up coming with me to church and then to my grandfather's surprise birthday party.[/b] He looked pretty bored, but I think it went by fast. Then he came over here and we frolicked around. We watched DONNIE DARKO (the greatest movie ever) and brought him home. I've noticed that I act completely different when I'm in public, then when I'm at home. In public I'm all quiet and act like a polite, behaved kid. Then at home I let my gut hang out and run around being a geek. I wish I could be crazy when I'm out... maybe I'll do it sometime. Who knows!
[b]My dad finally emailed me.[/b] I thought he died or something, since he hasn't emailed me back in like 3 months. But yeah, I suppose it was nice to hear from him. He said he was going to call me tonight and I don't know if I'm looking foreword to it or dreading it.... or if I would care if he never even ended up calling. Conversations with him are always pretty awkward but there's a lot I want to tell him and it seems like he has a lot to tell me. Here's the email:
Hi Sierra!
Sorry I havent written for a while but have been really really busy I will tell you why in a second but thank you for the fathers day message it was great to hare from you!! I have been busy moving and painting and moving and... Andrea and me got a new house!!! It has 3 bedrooms but it could be 5 if we wanted and a huge playroom for your brother too or family room. It is a split level home and its only 2 years old and we re-painted everything (it was all white before)Its huge really, all kinds of room its what we were hoping for and I plan to call you today sometime so if you havent read it yet I will tell you its here ok! I love you Sierra!
- Dad
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| Jasmin's House |
| 06.26.04 (12:57 pm) [edit] |
[b]I just got home from Jasmin's house. [/b]I spent the night at her house last night and went to a picnic with her today for her mom's work. That picnic had to have been the most boring thing I've ever had to suffer through in my life :roll: , but I'm glad I got to hang out with Jasmin because we hardly ever hung out during the school year. She wants me to go to the ocean with her on Monday after I'm done with my tutoring, and then she wants to hang out again on Wednesday. I have a friend! lol
[b]Tomorrow I'm going to church, then a surprise party for my grandfather. [/b]Matt's supposed to be going with me but who knows. He keeps changing his mind :? . If he doesn't want to go it's fine. I can just sit around with the old people and have a grand time! I hope my entire summer doesn't consist of tutoring, eating, and family gatherings. Blah. I won't allow it. Well I'm gonna go do my math homework. Hasta!
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| About the Conversation |
| 06.25.04 (4:34 am) [edit] |
[b]Yeah, that conversation with Dean yesterday wasn't the most pleasant thing.[/b] He over dramatizes everything! I feel like I'm in junior high again! I don't know if he really feels that way about me or he's just making a big deal about this. Either way, it doesn't matter. I wouldn't go out with him. I'm glad that I finally had that conversation with him though because I think he was still wondering if he had any chance with me. It was weird to know that after all this time he still likes me when I haven't even been around. He'll find someone... actually probably not because he has crazy emotional problems that make him nice :D one minute and then in rage the next :x . I'm gonna go eat some breakfast. I'll be back later to continue my rambling
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| Break Down |
| 06.24.04 (4:18 am) [edit] |
[b]Well I guess we're not going to the beach today :( . [/b]Jasmin's car broke down again and they just spent 200 dollars trying to fix what was wrong with it yesterday. They thought it was the battery so they bought a new battery and now the car still isn't working. It broke down in front of a repair place this morning, which is pretty good luck, and it's getting fixed now. If they can fix it we'll probably just hang out here or at David's house.
[b]Matt's going camping tonight with his friend James. [/b]That's cool. I'm glad he's doing something so he isn't sitting at home depressed that he hasn't done anything yet. I never ended up hanging out with him yesterday because I would have needed to be home by 5 to take my step dad out to eat and Matt's mom was sleeping. I'm off to do some excersize-like things! Hasta!
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Later, again, 2:09pm
[b]This is my conversation with Dean. I'm CellarDoor.[/b]
[u]CellarDoor434:[/u] hey
[u]dc07shoeco07:[/u] whos this
[u]CellarDoor434:[/u] This is Sierra
[u]dc07shoeco07:[/u] what do you want
[u]CellarDoor434:[/u] ... I don't want anything
[u]dc07shoeco07:[/u] ok
[u]CellarDoor434:[/u] why do you always tell Jasmin you hate me? I never did anything to you
[u]dc07shoeco07: [/u]well, what about matt
[u]CellarDoor434:[/u] I just don't understand why you're nice when you're around me but you tell Jasmin that you hate me
[u]dc07shoeco07:[/u] i hate you cause i wanted you, and i thought u wanted me
[u]CellarDoor434:[/u] I want to be friends with you. We can't be more than that
[u]dc07shoeco07:[/u] why cant it happen
[u]CellarDoor434[/u]: Because I'm happy now. But I'm not happy that you don't even want to talk to me anymore
[u]dc07shoeco07:[/u] well thats ur prob
[u]CellarDoor434:[/u] i'm sorry. if you want me to just forget about even talking to you I will
[u]dc07shoeco07:[/u] go for it it wont matter to me i mean ur not gonna go out with me
[u]CellarDoor434:[/u] going out with someone isn't everything. You can still talk to someone and not be their boyfriend or girlfriend but if that's all you want from me than fine, I guess we just won't talk at all.
[u]dc07shoeco07:[[/u]away message]going to the ville be back later. sierra i dont know about you
[u]dc07shoeco07:[/u] [back] its not that, i just have a lot of feelings for you, but what the hell do i do? sit and wait tell i find some one thats nice like you, pretty like you, and has good sense of humor like you? cant do that for the rest of my life so whatever, do what you want. i just hope he makes you happy. I'm leaving, there's nothing here for me [signed off]
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| Not Green Anymore! |
| 06.23.04 (6:10 am) [edit] |
[b]Yay! It's nice out! :D [/b] I was supposed to go to the beach with Jasmin today but her car battery died. Matt's going to call me when he wakes up to see if I can go to his house and we can frolic around on his lawn.
[b]I went shopping with Jasmin yesterday[/b] and got jeans at Pac Sun. I was a happy one! Size 3 was huge so I fit in a size 1!! I think they do that on purpose... make the sizes bigger so that you like their store more. Jasmin got a bunch of stuff at Old Navy that was like 50% off. I had her get me a job application for me there. I should probably fill that out soon before they stop hiring.
[b]I think I might swim in my pool [/b]for the first time today. The water isn't really green anymore so I'm pretty sure it's safe. Well I gotta go because I have a lot to do today before I can leave. Hasta!
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| Awake |
| 06.22.04 (5:15 am) [edit] |
[b]David (one of my friends) called my house at 10pm last night [/b]while everyone was sleeping (except me) and John told him not to call so late. I didn't go to bed until about 1 in the morning so I was looking foreword to sleeping in. No. [i]That did not happen.[/i] David called at 8am and had absolutely nothing worth waking me up for to say :evil: . He said that he would call me back in an hour and a half because he wanted to go back to sleep. Well once I'm awake there's no hope for me, I can't go back to sleep so I'm up for the day. Yippee. He wants to go to the ocean today but there are suppose to be thunder and lightning storms so I told him that wasn't the best idea. I suggested mini-golfing since it's close and we can get icecream :P but he's set on going to the ocean. Well he can go by himself, unless Jasmin and Matt want to go. They're not dumb though so they probably won't want to go if it's supposed to rain. Well I'm gonna go get my math homework over with so that I can do whatever I want today and not have to keep thinking about it. Hasta!
[LINE]
Later, noon
Jasmin just called. She's on her way to pick me up so we can go shopping. My mom told me I could take out some money fromt the bank so I'm off to be a spending child! I'll be back sometime before 5. Hasta
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| Professional |
| 06.21.04 (7:44 am) [edit] |
I got this picture off of someone's blog. I hope their not mad I'm using it! I need to find a dog like this!
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| Dirty |
| 06.21.04 (4:20 am) [edit] |
[b]Shower time... [/b]I was going to write but I'm feeling like a pretty dirty kid so I'm gonna go be clean and then I'll come back to write.
Later, 9:04am
[b]I'm clean now! [/b]It's so nice outside... :( I wish I could go hang out with people today but I can't because my tutor doesn't know what time she can tutor me so I have to stay available all day... for the next week. Blah! I can't wait until this is all over with! I have a quiz today, then two more quizzes after that some other time, then my final and I'm done. Tutoring should be done by next weekend.
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 I am The Lovers
The Lovers often refers to a relationship that is based on deep love, the strongest force of all. The relationship may not be sexual, although it often is or could be. More generally, the Lovers can represent the attractive force that draws any two entities together in a relationship - whether people, ideas, events, movements or groups. |
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| Letting Go |
| 06.19.04 (5:18 pm) [edit] |
I'm [b]drowning[/b] in the blue ocean of your eyes
I start running out of breath
As I swim deeper
I'm afraid that the water filling my lungs will kill me
I try to fight it but I can't
It's [b]taking over[/b]
I'm panicking because my world is going black
I don't think I can just let go
I'm scared it will [b]hurt[/b]
I'm glancing to the surface in my [b]last moments[/b]
I know I don't want to go back
This is where I belong
I'm smiling and I can't stop no matter how hard I try
I [b]enhale[/b] the blue ocean of your eyes
And I am not afraid
I'm letting go and it doesn't feel like I'm giving up
Because I'd rather [b]drown in your ocean[/b]
Than live without you
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| You Know, THOSE Ones |
| 06.18.04 (6:08 am) [edit] |
See what drug you are.
[b]I had my wonderful tutoring time this morning.[/b] I was [i]sooo[/i] tired, but I managed to pay attention for the whole hour and a half. It's not bad at all. When I'm learning one on one instead of in a classroom I don't have any problems understanding the material.
[b]I'm leaving this afternoon[/b] to spend the night somewhere up North with Matt and his family. We're going to his family reunion tomorrow and they needed to go up early to help set up. I'm happy that I get to spend some time with him :P because we haven't really been able to hang out lately. Well, we did yesterday... but... before that we hadn't in a while. Well I should probably pack. Hasta!
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| Free CD For Me |
| 06.17.04 (4:59 pm) [edit] |
[b]I just got home. [/b]I went over to Matt's house around 3 and we hung out for a while. Then we went to the bowling alley because his little sisters have a thing. I ate a snickers, 3 pieces of pizza, a curly fry, a boneless buffalo wing, some skittles, a sprite, and some strawberry-banana juice...lol. I can eat massisve amounts of food and it's starting to show. I only weigh like 103 but I used to be 95. Part of me misses being able to look good no matter what I wore but another part of me knows that I'm healthier now.
[b]We went to a car place after because Matt's dad had to do something and WCYY was there.[/b] Matt entered some contest to win tickets and the guy asked me if I wanted to enter and I said, "No, I'm all set." He shook Matt's hand, then mine and asked what my name was. I told him it was Sierra and he's like, "Well, since he entered, I'll give you this CD." He gave me Crossfade. I really like it, so I'm a happy kid! I feel bad that Matt didn't get a CD when he's the one that entered... oh well! I got a CD! I'm going to burn it for him. Well I'm gonna go to bed. Hasta!
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| Dead, Smelly Crabs |
| 06.17.04 (6:37 am) [edit] |
See what amusement park ride you are.
[b]Jasmin called yesterday around noon[/b] and asked me if I wanted to go to the ocean so she came to get me and we went. She hardly ever asks me to do anything so I was surprised. I think she just asked me because no one else would go... :? but it doesn't matter. At least I got to run around collecting dead, smelly crabs with her, lol. She wanted me to go swimming with her but it was FREEZING :!: so I refused.
[b]When I get my pictures developed[/b] I'm going to get them on a disk too so that I can put them online somewhere. I'll put a link on here to wherever I decide to have them. I'm not going to be developing them for a while though because I'm a moneyless child.
[b]I had my first tutoring session this morning at 8:00. [/b]What a fun time that was, lol. It was pretty easy to understand and she gave me a little bit of work to do. We finished by 9, an hour earlier than we were planning on. I have to go in again tomorrow at the same time. I think this is going to go by pretty fast and then I won't have to worry about math anymore. I'm really hoping that she doesn't want me to go in on Saturday because I've been planning on going to Matt's family thing with him for like a month now. My parents said that if the teacher wanted me to go in I would have to, regardless of other plans.
[b]I cooked something for the first time[/b] a couple days ago: brownies. They would have come out fine but... I used unsweetened chocolate because I didn't know there was a difference, and I didn't use the right kind of butter. My mom, John, and Jasmin tasted them and they made faces and Jasmin threw hers away, lol. I like them! I don't know what they're talking about! When I asked John what was wrong he said, "Everything," and left the room. So I guess I failed my first attempt at cooking :( . I'm going to have my parents teach me how to cook because I only have a year left at home and I want to be able to cook before I leave. I'm gonna read some other people's blogs, then do my math homework. Hasta!
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| Frolicking Prarie Dogs |
| 06.16.04 (5:06 am) [edit] |
[b]Heeyyy!!![/b] 8) I'm in a good mood right now. I'm going to keep myself busy today so I don't start thinking and put myself into a bad mood. The emptier my mind, the better. I'm going to do the dishes, put some water in the pool, clean my room, play basketball... anything, until Matt gets out of school and calls me. I might be going over to his house tonight. I didn't have to go to school today because I finished my finals yesterday.
[b]Oh yeah, I have to write back to Marissa.[/b] She's one of the people I met at camp about four years ago and we've been writing back and forth since then :) . I haven't written back in a while so I should probably do that.
[b]I want to get my black and white film developed sometime soon. [/b]I've never taken pictures with black and white film so I'm anxious to see how they come out. Hopefully I didn't screw them up :shock: ! Well I'm gonna go turn the hose on and put an hour's worth of water into the pool. Hasta!
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| History |
| 06.15.04 (8:04 am) [edit] |
[b]Jasmin and David came over yesterday[/b] :D after school to study for finals, but we ended up buying pizza and didn't do much of anything after that. We just hung out in my room and talked for a couple hours, then they left. David is definitely a deprived child... it's a sad thing.
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I finished my history final in like 15 minutes[/b] so I had to sit around for the next hour and some minutes until everyone else was done. I'm so glad I studied! I knew every single answer... actually I might have guessed on like two or three.
Matt just called so I'll write more later.
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| Independent Film |
| 06.14.04 (2:41 am) [edit] |
[b]I wake up waaaayyy too early! [/b]I was up at 5:15 this morning because John turned the TV on upstairs. I'm actually glad he did because I forgot to set my alarm clock and I had to wake up at 5:25 anyway. I'm ready by 6 so I just sit around until 7:30 when I got to school. Well, not lately because of my mono-ness, but I'm going in today and tomorrow to take my finals. I should probably be studying right now... blah. I know I'll pass.
[b]I feel like watching a really good independent film. [/b]One of those movies that not many people have seen, that gets thrown in a big pile of movies no one ever watches at the rental place. I think I'll go in search of some on Wednesday, since I'll be school free after Tuesday :P .
[b]I've been thinking a lot about what I want to go to college for and so far I've come up with a couple things. [/b]
Something to do with [u]psychology[/u], who knows what.
Something to do with [u]English[/u], like maybe being an english teacher, or writing for something.
Something to do with [u]computers[/u], I don't know, I just threw that one out there because I couldn't think of any and I wouldn't mind working with computers.
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| Random Weddings |
| 06.13.04 (8:30 am) [edit] |
[b]The pool is finally set up[/b] :D . This morning we started putting some water in it but it was at such a slant that we had to move the pool and make the ground level. Then my mom and John set the pool back up and it's still not level but it's better than it was before. We should be having some people come to fill it by the end of the week :!:
[b]My parents left a little while ago to go to some random person's wedding.[/b] I guess John is related to the person but he doesn't know who they are. They're just going because they were invited. I think I'm going to go lay outside. [u]Matt, if you read this call me.[/u]
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| Bleeding Sky |
| 06.12.04 (6:54 am) [edit] |
Okay, this is for stupid people that think just because you write a poem it means that you feel that way. I guess some people just don't understand anything. With that out of the way, here is my poem, NOT reflecting the way I feel:
The sky is bleeding
The crimson drenches my clothes
I breathe in the stain
As I look to the sky
The pavement is crying
The red rain pounds against it
I solemnly stare
As I look to the ground
The people are watching
The frightened masses gather
I do not fear the bleeding sky
As I am bleeding with it
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